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Just when life was getting tolerable guess who texts me…
SGT. Your absence of presence in my life led me to believe you’ve finally found what you were looking for in life. Why are you talking to me?
This is when all the memories of pain come flooding back. How you manipulated me, lied to me and took advantage of me.
Why are you doing this? Everything was finally getting better after you broke it.

I was holding my backpack to my chest and I happened to smell your nametape, it smelled exactly like you, I can’t believe all of the memories that came rushing back and for that split second, I missed you - I realize that I miss you.

We were great friends, I don’t think I’ll fully understand why we’re not as close but I’m still so proud of you. Wherever you may be in life or will be, I’ll always support you even though you don’t support me.

I know you don’t want to see me become a Marine…and maybe that’s why we weren’t meant to stay friends. It’s a very stupid reason but it’s whatever floats your boat. I hope your discharge is coming along soon, maybe you’ll start being happier.

Hey, Sarge.

That shirt you gave me from one of your deployments, I cut the sleeves off.

I wanted to fit it comfortably and it’s pretty bad ass.

Thank you, Sir.

Just a letter.

Just one.

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That godly moment where you realize you did the right thing.

I am so happy with myself right now.

Leaving Sgt. was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. 

Learning some new things that just proves how much I didn’t need him in my life.

I can stop feeling like I wasn’t enough now, he was the one that never deserved me.

What a dirty little soldier you are.

It’s only fair that I remove you from my life because I wasn’t worth your time. I broke up with you weeks ago, why are you still here?

I apologize for the inconvenience that I imposed and the fact that I only helped you go back to your ex. If you ever dare tell me that you love me again, I will drive to Fort Knox to punch you square in the jaw for feeding me such bullshit. Do me a favor and just get back with her and forget about me. Don’t talk to me about how you miss me and care about me. Don’t talk to me about anything unless it’s of dire importance.

Don’t you ever think of us getting back together because I will never lessen my worth by being with someone who only sees me as an option.

You’re just a soldier and I’m just a future marine. The two don’t mix well.

Have a good life, Sgt.

I don’t know how to process this.

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I always fidget with this damn knife.
It makes me happy.
It’s always in my hands.

I always fidget with this damn knife.

It makes me happy.

It’s always in my hands.

It just needs to be said.

I just can’t hold this in anymore.

You are a pretentious class A douche bag, Sergeant. 

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The last conversation between us that I'll ever document.
Sgt: If you EVER loved me DO NOT EVER, EVER,EVER,EVER,EVER,EVER become a Marine.
Me: What about the Army? You told me to never join the Army...Haha.
Sgt: I take back my ultimatum. Don't become a Marine or we are absolutely done.
Me: Good. I can get away from you. LOL.
The ultimate way to get me irritated.
Me: Hey, it's really important, can we talk later?
Person: Yes.
Me: - calls -
Person: - doesn't pick up the fucking phone but is on tumblr-